Just a little bit of Jess

2004-03-23T18:26:00.000-08:00

Boo!!! Hehe...just thought I'd catch ya offguard. Did it work? :P

2004-01-16T20:40:00.000-08:00

Wow, surprised to see that I was missed! haha Anyways, I'd rather update than be yelled at by Everest again. haha Love ya girlie *winkers* Yea, so there is a hell of a lot goin on right now in our lives and i'd have to admit that I actually forgot about this thing for awhile. I mean, do ya blame me? You've seen pics of the beautiful lil girl I was blessed with. Yes I'm gloatin and you can't stop me!! haha Instead of talkin bout nothin, I decided to do a Friday Five that I found mildley amusing, or whatever. So here ya go. Dunno when I'll be visitin you lovely ppl next. Cross yer fingers??

1. What was your biggest accomplishment this year? For the most part, I believe my biggest accomplishment happened on August 29 when I gave birth to my beautiful baby girl. It was hell, lemme tell ya...but WAY worth the pain I went through. I would do that again under different curcumstances of course.

2. What was your biggest disappointment? I'm not one who likes to dwell on past downers. Can't we keep things positive ppl???

3. What do you hope the new year brings? I'm hoping the new year brings lots of new beginnings when it comes to motherhood. I can't wait for all the "firsts" to come! I'm also hoping that it brings this special someone to me finally. I think I've been a good girl and I believe I deserve to finally be happy with someone.

4. Will you be making any New Year's resolutions? If yes, what will they be? I didn't make any resolutions for the new year, but I have recently started somewhat of a type of goal. Damnit! I'm gonna get into shape and lose my damn baby fat!!! *smiles*

5. What are your plans for New Year's Eve? Past Tense...ok.. Well...my plans were as follows... Rent some movies, order some pizza, invite a couple ppl over, watch movies and eat pizza. Wow...exciting stuffs huh? Went about that way too. Sis came over and I almost didn't make it to midnight due to some stupid movie with Heath Ledger called The Order. Don't rent it ppl...it's a sleeper.

Well, there y'all go. Hope that satisfies yer cravings until the next time I remember this thing called a blog again. Later days! (Damn Weekenders....haha)

2003-12-01T18:47:00.000-08:00

1. Those paper toilet seat covers in public bathrooms, do you use them? Umm....that would be a big ole YES! Never know what the person who sat on that seat before ya left behind for you. eewwww

2. What is on your Christmas Wish List for Santa to bring? A new car?? Bigger bed?? Lots of money?? All of the above?? :)

3. What did you accomplish in the month of November? Ok, is this personal or work related? Myself, the one thing that I accomplished was movin my living room around without even movin it. Damn, sisters are awesome! lol

4. Have you ever snuck into someplace that you shouldn't have? Umm...into Cambria's room while she woke up? Darnit she saw me!! lol

5. Do you recall the first internet meme you participated in? The first meme I participated in was I believe this or that Tuesdays. Now it is no longer...oh woah.. How did you come to find out about it? It was one of the "in" easy and fun meme's that everyone was doin, so I jumped on the band wagon. Do you still participate? I would participate in it if it was still active.

6. Do you have any favorite internet or "streaming" radio programs or music channels you wish were available in your car or on a portable radio? Um...don't really listen to the streamin stuff unless i'm lookin for a song online. Besides...can never get the full thing with all the times the program's try to reload or whatever.

7. Ever been skinny dipping? What's the story there? Skinny dippin? lol I've been tempted to a time or two before, but all I ever got down to was my bra and thong. woohoo...livin on the edge!

Yea, so found out today that my grandpa is gonna go on! *Big ole smiles!!* He is breathin on his own and sooo respondin totally good. Poor guy can't talk though, he tries soo hard but just can't make a sound. I want to hear his voice, but looks like we might have to settle for a damn voice box. Oh well, least it'll let him speak. Went to visit him today, he looks real good besides the fact he's lost soo much weight. Got to see his face instead of all those damn tubes blockin it. It is gonna be a long road to full recovery though. Lets just hope he is able to come to a full recovery. I'm prayin..

There's more goin on...but I don't wanna jinx anythin so I'm not gonna talk about it....yet. lol to be continued....

2003-11-27T00:04:00.000-08:00

Well, as I was feeding Cambria this evening (late evening) this show called Nightline came on. This is one of those news shows that comes on after the local news. They were doing a show on letters from the war and the first family they did it on was the Sgt of my late flame. At that, there goes those thoughts. I peeked at his blog this evening and i'd have to admit that I am kinda in envy of him. Don't get me wrong, it does still hurt inside but I'm a strong girl who can overcome small obsticals (if that makes any sense). Anyways, enough about him...

Turkey day is tomorrow..err or 6 min away..and I have no clue of what's going to be happening for the day. My grandpa has been in the hospital for close to a month now for what at first was supposed to be a "simple surgery". Yea, well "simple surgery"'s need REAL SURGEONS! Anyways, so he had complications due to the Surgeons puttin him back together wrong. Needless to say, my grandpa has been on a resperator, has been having heart probs and isn't gettin enough oxygen to all the needed areas of his system. This in itself is hard seeing as he is the backbone of our family. He is the "Strong One" that has faith in all we do. I really feel for my grandma for she has so many thoughts going through her head now about what can and may happen. I won't go anymore into this, just wanted to get to a point. Pretty much the reason why nothing's really happening today is because my grandma doesn't want to partake in any get togethers because grandpa wouldn't be able to be there to partake as well. This is pretty hard seeing as we have a pretty close knit family. So I'm very questionable as to whether some of the family will be getting together or if I'm just gonna make a chicken dinner for my sis and I. This is pretty hard seeing as though I don't know Thanksgiving or any other holiday without the family getting together for dinner and good conversation. I just pray that my grandpa does keep himself strong, get his rest and be able to completely recover from this sickness he has. I love you grandpa! On that note, I wish you all a very Happy Thanksgiving! Enjoy it to the fullest because you'll never know what's going to happen. Life.....

2003-11-01T22:32:00.000-08:00

Oh yea...can't pass this one up...lol

1. Do you like scary movies? Why or why not? I LOVE scary movies!! I think I like em so much because of the adreneline rush they give from all the surprises that they throw out at ya!

2. What was the first scary movie you remember seeing? How old were you? What in that movie scared you the most? The first scary movie would have to be one of the many Nightmare on Elm Street series. Don't know for sure how old I was exactly, would have to guess around 7 or 8 I think. That nightmare thing just really got to me, damn those gloves man! lol

3. How scary is that movie now to you? Why? LOL Scary? Those Freddy movies get me rollin now! I have to admit though..when Freddy comes outta the mirror...that freaks the shit outta me still! lol

4. What scary movie did you not find scary? Why? What scary movie did you find too scary to finish or, if you did finish, bothered you days later? Why? Ok...I cannot think of any movie that i did not find scary...obviously since it wasn't scary i won't remember it! lol Too scary? Ok...The Ring! It's all good...tell she comes outta the TV!!! AAAHHH!!! I still cover my face at the end...that just creeps me out!! And yea..I kept the lights on and closed my bedroom door for a few nights after watchin that movie...was almost tempted to throw out the damn tv! lmao

5. Select 3-5 scary movies for a Halloween marathon. Why did you pick these titles? Hmm...Halloween marathon? Tough tough tough... I would originally go with watchin a whole series...like Nightmare on Elm Street, Halloween or Leather Face. Couldn't really go with individual titles, gotta stick with the originals! hehe

Yea, so I'm a freak when it comes to scary movies! Gotta love somethin that can make ya jump and think... Anyways, hope y'all had a great halloween! I enjoyed mine sittin around with Cambria watchin non-scary movies cause Blockbuster only has the ones I've either already seen or don't even care to see. But the Italian Job was good...damn Mark Wahlburg is a TEASE!!! *drools* Anyways...lata and happy bloggin!! :)

2003-10-29T17:36:00.000-08:00

Positives/Negatives

Ok, I have been feelin mighty down latey so I decided to weigh out what I got and what I don't got. Hopefully it'll make me feel a slight bit better...

Positives:

1. CAMBRIA!!!
(figure she can add up to at least 3 on the positive scale)
4. Stable job w/decent income (doesn't pay all the bills, but most of em)
5. Have a roof over my head (rented..but hell)
6. Have a very loving and supportive family.
7. Have very caring and supportive friends.
8. Found day care!! Woohoo!!
9. Finally have Disney movies for Cambria!!
10. Oh...and my computer is finally paid off!! (after 2 freakin long years...ugh!)

Negatives:
1. Can't pay all the bills. :(
2. Need a better car.
3. Lost what I though could of been the love of my life
4. Think the cell's gonna be shut off soon, if it isn't already.
5. I'm lucky if I get 5 hours of sleep a night. (I know, that comes with the job)

Umm...think that's it...or at least for now. Makes me feel a lil better though seeing that I do have more positives than negatives. Seems like somethin's wrong with that picture though. Only 5 negatives?? I'm sure there will be more added once they enter my messed up head.

Well, today is Cambria's 2 month birthday! She's gotten sooo big. Dr weighed her at 10lb 5.6oz and 22 3/4 long! WOWSERS!!! Said she is a perfect lil girl, which I already know(she takes after her perect lil mommy...hehe). Today was also shot day She did real good though. Took all the other mothers advice and got her some infant tylenol which helped out wonders for her crankyness and fever. I just hope everything goes well tomorrow at the day care. She is soo beautiful ppl!! She's gettin her personality now and smiling soo much. Oh, and what a beautiful smile it is! The first time I caught a glimpse of it was during my lunch hour one day. I started tearing up, it was such an awesome experience! I'm soo in love with her. I swear she is the ONLY thing in my life worth living for, and right now she's a god send!!

Well not happy to admit to it, but I'm single again. Been ran over by love again, feels worse this time though. Have you ever had that feeling that everything someone said was a lie? That's kinda how I feel at the moment and that hurts pretty bad. From talkin bout spendin our lives together and rasing a family to not even talking anymore. I really don't find that as a caring way to handle a situation. What really hurts is the fact that he was present when Cambria was born. That tears me up that he acted as though he loved me then just squished my heart to bits. I never felt so in love with someone as I did him. And to tell you the truth, I really believed him when he told me he loved me over and over again. Love hurts, ain't that the truth?! Not even sure if I ever wanna fall again, not even really interested in looking for it now. Knowing how men are, he's prolly already found someone else and we have only been apart a month. Don't get me wrong, I know he has a very good heart he just needs to figure out what it is he really wants. I do hope he finds it. I constantly think about him still, think it'll take a while to get over him. I just wish he could still converse with me, we did get along real well. I miss him, I hope he knows that.

Ok...I'm ready for a smile, how bout you? Here's somethin to smile about....

Audience participation....
From your previous failed relationships, what helped you the most to get over it?

2003-09-29T21:19:00.000-07:00

Tryin to get back in the routine again...don't get used to it! lol

"Name your favorite..............."

1. quote: "You had me at hello" Rene Zellwegger from the movie Jerry Maguire.

2. movie: Gia with Angelina Jolie...meeeoooowwww

3. color: Toss up between green and purple.

4. beverage: Raspberry Brisk Iced Tea..mmmmm

5. font: ya...ok lol

6. meal: There's too much to choose from. Just like Lays potato chips..."Can't have just 1"

7. book: Rose Madder by Stephen King

8. word: "Dip" rather than fuck, shit etc... hell..I got a lil girl to think about! "wink"

9. animal: Tigers

10. fragrance: Fresh White Musk by Jovan

Postpartum Depression is the pits!

2003-09-28T16:24:00.000-07:00

Postpartum Depression is the pits!!

This is definately not fun. No, I don't feel like I want to hurt anyone or afraid of hurting anyone. It's more of a selfish thing for me. Since last night I've been feeling scared, unsecure, selfish and just plain afraid. I haven't cried this much in a long time. It feels similar to how I felt during my breakdown at the hospital but it has nothing to do with Cambria. A feeling of worthlessness that I just can't make right. Yet, there is nothing for me to feel worthless about. I really do not like what this is doing to me emotionally. I feel like I may lose something very dear to me, yet I still know that I most likely won't but I still can't help to think about it. I have lost a little bit of control here and it seems to be tearing me up. Just got over a breakdown a few minutes ago and I'm sure another will be sure to come around anytime. Earlier, watching Xanadu with my daughter. As I was singing a song to her from the movie I just started crying. It seems that half of the time I cry about something that jumps into my head from nowhere...possibly nonsense but it just scares me that what I think could happen. But then again I know I'm just scaring myself thinking these things could be. But I really don't know, I just wish these thoughts would get out of my head and that the crying would cease. I just hope I'm reassured soon that I'm not losing my mind and that everything is ok. Until that happens just call me a lil cryin baby. Such a lush

2003-09-25T15:59:00.000-07:00

Isn't she just beautiful?? Momma's pride and joy!!

So yea, they had me induced 5 days after she was due because my amnionic fluid was lower than it should have been (could be dangerous for the baby if we waited).

Labor wasn't extreemly terrible. After checking into the hospital, waited about an hour or so before they started enducing me. Boy, I will NEVER take enducing for granted AGAIN!! It is what they say...hello PAIN quick and hard. Damn did those hurt! What's kinda strange is the fact that when I went into the hospital I was 50% thinned out and 1 cm dialated...by the time they gave me the epidural (THANK GOD!!!), I was 3cm dialated and completely thinned out. I will go on with that part....epidurals...wow..think if I do have another (hopefully one day *wink*), not too sure if I'll do that again. It was like my blood pressure ridin a damn rollercoaster! Up and down up and down...side to side was me. Shakin uncontrollably however burnin up. The warm blankets did help but not the fact that everyone kept tellin me to breathe slowly. Umm...hello...I'm doin the best I freakin can! You try breathin calmly durin these damn shakes! grrr Yea...so that was my lovely epidural experience. Didn't really bother me when they put it in either, besides the fact that I was in the middle of contractions (another OUCH!!).

Well...about a couple hours or so after they started the epidural (mind you, they did not have any readings of my contractions after they started the epidural), I had this strange feeling..kinda like I had to take a big ole shit. It was right there..so of course..."Umm...it feels like I have to take a poop?" After this said, the nurse checked me out and as I watched her eyes pop open she said "You're 9cm dialated!" I'm like omg...here we go... I do believe that pushin her out was the easyest thing durin the whole labor process! Took no longer than like 45 minutes. Lucky me!!

She came out perfect as can be. A full head of hair, beautiful complexion...6lbs 8oz and 19" long. Most beautiful being I have EVER seen! First thing I did after seeing her was cry uncontrollably. "I can't believe I'm a Mommy!" ..Is what was going through my head. It's not everyday that someone can say that! Happy Happy was I. What made it nice was the fact that during my labor the ppl I loved most were constantly by my side cheerin me on and doin their best to keep me calm. I completely LOVED the fact that my love was there to help me on. Just sucked cause I wasn't able to spend any time with him after I had Cambria. Cried to myself after he left as I walked back to my room. Yea, ya know I just can't blame the postpartum on it cause I didn't wanna see him go. But there will be a day...it will come when we won't have to say goodbye except maybe when we leave each other for work or errands. I'm bein as patient as possible for that day to come.

Anyways...I ended up having to stay at the hospital for an additonal 4 days after I had Cambria. I was actually discharged on the 2nd but there was no way in hell I was gonna leave and come back every 2 hours to feed her. You must be wonderin why I was discharged and she wasn't? Well, she had a case of Belly Ruben (Jaundice) and had lost 10oz. These extra days took it all out of me. The hospital/nurses all encouraged breastfeeding like crazy..however I could not tell exactly how much colostrum/milk the baby was getting do determine if she was getting enough nurishment. So, to help me out we started finger feeding her formula using a syringe and a thin tube. That helped a lot. Overall the visit was fine except for one dreaded night..er morning. I had been feeding Cambria for about 3 1/2 to 4 hours on my breasts and she still acted like she was hungry..fussing and all. I asked the nurse who was on shift if she would bring me a cup of hot tea water so I could warm up some formula to feed the baby. She went on to tell me that the baby prolly just wanted something to suck on, not necessarily something to eat. I'm sittin there ballin my eyes out cause I felt soo worthless that I couldn't do anything to make my baby happy. She offers to take the baby out into the nurses station so I could sleep...umm..HELL NO! I figured I could deal with it. Well, needless to say, the nurse never brought the water and Cambria ended up sleepin with me in my bed. Come to find out the next day, the girl in the room next to me complained about the same nurse the same night so needless to say she was writtin a lil note pointing that out. I love to help! :)

Well, now with her at home she is weighing at 7lbs and has grown to 21". She is gettin big fast! Her fingers and toes are gettin soo long. But she is the most beautiful baby I've ever seen! She sleeps a lot still, even through the night!! :) Of course she has her fussy times, least once a day where nothin seems to help her out besides momma holdin her and puttin her to sleep. No worries though, I do believe I have the best lil girl in the world! And I'm soo excited for what's to come! Ok, I've went on enough. If I missed anythin..I'm hopin you all will ask the needed questions. Till then...blog safely!

2003-09-20T19:59:00.000-07:00

Bet y'all think that I'm tryin to avoid the whole blog thing, but you'd be wrong! hehe I'm just holding out through my conversion from AOHELL (Helly it IS!!) to regular microsoft dial up to my lovely DSL which I'll recieve on friday (HELL YEA!!!). So no, no avoiding is happening just can't see shit the way I want to with this crap that they call AOHELL. So please bare with the new mommy (Yaaaayyyy!!) till she gets what she wants...lol Blog safely all!

2003-08-10T13:22:00.000-07:00

Ok, today is a misc. day. Not really sure what to blog about, so here's a couple quizes I found...enjoy!

You have a surprise kiss! Your partner is always
pleasantly pleased to have you jump outta no
where to dote them with a fun peck on the cheek
or more passionate embrace. super markets and
work places are your favorite places to attack
your loved one with all your love =p

What kind of kiss are you?
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You are a Sexy Fairy

What kind of fairy are you? (Girls only... although maybe Guys would work?)
brought to you by Quizilla

Wow. You aren't a fuckwit. I am amazed. I guess
this means that there ARE some other half-way
intelligent folks on this planet afterall! : )

Are You a God Damn Fuckwit?
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Ok, so maybe I decided to do 3..sue me already! Anyways...I'm outtie! Blog safely!

3XThursday

2003-08-07T19:36:00.000-07:00

Just a lil somethin I found on Moonie's blog...

Missy's 3x Thursday

1. Do you have any substance vices? (cigs, caffeine,etc) Are you aware of them? Do they create problems for you? Ever want to do anything about them? Ewww....Mean question!! I have to admit though I do have two at the moment that I need to kick asap. And of course they'd be the two listed between parenthasis. At the moment I don't see any problems with them for myself, but another lil one I can't speak for just yet. I would love to just drop em both, but it seems like once I stop I can't help but to start again when I feel the need.

2. Do you have any non-substance vices? (pr0n, puters, driving) Do you think they're bad? Or good? I would have to go with Missy on this one and say that I do have a love for the drive. I'm one who looks forward to nice long drives, but of course there's normally a very goood reason for the drive. It's also hard for me to stay away from the computer. Seeing though that's the way I get to communicate with my . Being bad or good, I really couldn't say. I suppose if I had somethin I had to do rather than those vices, I would prioritize them before I got to the vices.

3. Are habits necessairly bad? Why or why not? Again with Missy, It would all have to depend on the type of habit it was. There's good habits and bad habits out there, choose one...

Bonus Question for Comments: We're all creatures of habit. Got any you wish to share with the class (present or past)? Umm...maybe I'll answer this one later....

Blu's This or That...

2003-08-05T17:58:00.000-07:00

1.About your ride: Automatic or stick? Stick, gotta love the power!

2.About your room: Neat or cluttered? It's normally cluttered, but seein as how I'm gonna be responsible for another soon, I'm doin my best to keep it neat.

3.About your cooking: Instant or from scratch? Depends on how I feel at the time. I'm normally an instant kinda girl, but sometimes ya gotta just go out and do it all from scratch. I've made up a lot of nifty recipes from seein what I can come up with from scratch. Most of it has been edible thank you very much!

4.About your relatives: Just family or people you really like? I would have to say my relatives are people in my family that I love. There are a few however I'm just not too sure about...

5.About your music: One genre or all types? I'm an all types kinda gal. Not so much up on the country, but there are some decent artists and songs that I will listen to. Can't really say what type of music I listen to the most. I have kinda had a tendancy to lean towards the harder stuff though.

6. *Token sex question* Wild or mild? On a normal day...I'm a wild child! But lately, the milder the better...lol

Well all, the countdown begins...only 3 weeks till the big day! Went to the dr yesterday and was told that the baby is just about 7lbs now. However, everyone seems to think I just don't look like I'm that far along. Asked the dr about that and their response was the fact that I'm so tall. He just had to add in there that he had a patient that was 6' who came out with a 9lb baby and she didn't even look it! So, Jess is a lil intimidated by that bit of news. All I can say is give me the damn needle ppl!!! I can't wait though. I know the responsibility is gonna be tough for a lil while, but I know I can do it. I'm still takin applications for a qualified babysitter...any takers?? hehe Anyways, this prego chick is starvin...I better wash some dishes so I can make some dinner from SCRATCH! lol Blog safely everyone!

2003-08-01T18:25:00.000-07:00

1. What time do you wake up on weekday mornings? Anywhere between 5am and 7am.

2. Do you sleep in on the weekends? How late? I try my best to sleep in in the weekends. Sometimes it just don't happen though. When I do sleep in, it's normally till 10am, unless I stayed up waaaay too late the night before...then good luck gettin me up! lol

3. Aside from waking up, what is the first thing you do in the morning? Normally it's pee or brush my teeth, which ever is the greater need.

4. How long does it take to get ready for your day? On a normal day it would take me about 15 minutes to a half hour to get ready. Now if I was to do somethin special like curl my hair...tack on an extra 15 minutes to that time!

5. When possible, what is your favorite place to go for breakfast? Well, I'm not one for breakfast. Cereal normally makes me happy when I need somethin in the mornin. But there is this one place in town called the Powderhorn Cafe, and they've got some AWESOME breakfast goodies! Get me a lil country fried steak, buscuits 'n gravy, sausage, eggs over easy, some sourdough toast with raspberry jam...mmmmmm If only I could eat all of that! lol

Well, this week went by pretty quick. Had a few family things come up that caught me a lil by surprise. First, my brother informs me that his fiance is about a month along (pregnant). Mom's not too happy about that I can just feel it. Ya see, my bro is turning 22 this year and my future sis-in-law is not even 20 yet. So my mom is kinda feelin/upset about the whole situation. My mom LOVES my bro's finace to death! Don't get me wrong, but she felt the same way when she found out that I was pregnant. Just gonna take her a few days to a week to let it set in so she can finally just deal with it. As y'all could prolly tell by now, my mom is kinda a strickty kinda person. Raised by two faithful Catholic parents, and brought up proper like with her 4 siblings (3 of those siblings remain today). I love her to death though! If she was ever taken away from me, I don't know what I would do. I'm sure my sister and I would be miserable for quite sometime. I can see us now, clinging to one another for eternal support. My mom is a big part of the backbone in my family. Strong yet stubborn, and will never change. lol

Second thing that happened this week, found out that one of my second cousins is possibly dead. Yes, I did say possibly. My sister calls me yesterday asking if I heard anything about it. I respond very vaguely.."Uhm...no.." She tells me that my uncle came by my parents house (while they're on vacation) and said that my cousin had been found alone in a hotel room. When I heard that, kinda freaked me out a lil. I'm not that close to this cousin, for she lives in Cali and I hardly see her but once every 5 years or so. So, needless to say I haven't broken down and really can't say if I will... Anyways, so my sister goes on to say that my cousin had no liver...that she drank herself to death. Once that came out of her mouth, I thought I vaguely remembered hearing something about her having a drinking problem, but couldn't be too sure. What's crazy is the fact that this cousin was the one person on my mom's side of the family that would be there for all the sicklings. She took care of my great grandma for years (who died after her 100th bday...I still miss her), and was recently taking care of one of my aunts who is very sick with emphasima. So, this totally took me for a spin thinking that she was still in the midst of taking care of my aunt. My sis and I descussed this a lil further, decided that we may or may not bring it up with mom this weekend after their vacation. May just be better to go to grandma about it. I don't know.

So, there you go. My week wrapped up in two paragraphs...a happy side and a not so happy side. Figure my blog needs a lil bit of diversity. Anyways, Enjoy all! Blog Safely!

2003-07-29T18:41:00.000-07:00

Well folks, no today. Instead we got a this-or-that alternative from Blu ...

1. Better 'Bond': Connery, Moore, or Brosnan? I've only seen the ones with Brosnan, next....

2. Better Margarita: Classic Lime or Fruity? Mmmm...give me the fruity please
3. Going for a walk:Hike or Stroll? Ohhh....I'll take a hike over a stroll anyday! Specially those wilderness hikes with the awesome look outs and beautiful waterfalls. Seclude me in beauty damnit!

4. T.P. purchase habits: 4 rolls or 9+? Well...at the moment seein as I'm on the toiley half of the day, that would have to be at least a 6+. lol

5. Non-alcoholic drink on a hot day: Iced Tea or Lemonade? Give me some Lipton Raspberry Brisk Iced Tea please

6. Token (oral) sex question: Giving, Receiving, or 69? Ok, I love giving as well as recieving, but doing them both at the same time can make me drift. What can I say, I'm a blonde... lol

7. Work Ethics: Work hard or Hardly work? I'm definately a worker! I am greatly appreciated at my job for the hard work I put in every day. Get told by my coworkers to stop commin in so damn early, but I can't help it. It's a better feeling to have accomplished more than necessary rather than not much at all.

Wow Blu! Good job, I must give you props for some awesome this-or-that's!

Now it's my turn. Yea, mushy Jess has come to make a lil visit folks. Listenin to some songs that kinda make me think of someone special. And damnit...not like I don't think of them enough durin the day (as you can tell with almost each and every blog I do). But, what can I say..I'm a lush...lol

"So in Love" by Soluna

Like a dream, a childhood fantasy
You came to me, wiped me off my feet
Like paradise lookin' in your eyes
You take my breath away
Baby, I'm here to say

You make me feel special
You're all that I need and more
Fairytales do come true
Cuz they did when I met you

The only time I ever fell
I fell for you
Now I'm so in love
So deep in love with you

When I'm with you, I get lost in time
When we're hand in hand
Our dreams intertwined
On and on like drifting off to sea
Never ending, you're all I need

You make me feel special
You're all that I need and more
Fairytales do come true
Cuz they did when I met you

(You make me feel special)
The only time I ever fell
(you're so incredible)
I fell for you
Now I'm so in love...

2003-07-28T11:36:00.000-07:00

And yet another

1. What one thing do you wish would never have been invented? Why? The CLOCK!!! If the clock was never invented...then we could have more time to enjoy what we liked and less of what we didn't. Sounds good right?

2. If you could change the speed limit on the highways, what would you change it to? 85 sounds good to me!

3. What word or words do you misspell consistently? uhm...i dotn now wat yar taulkin abot. I nevver miss spell anyting!

4. What wealthy person is the least deserving of their fortune? Why? I'm gonna have to pass on this one. Only people I can think of at the moment are Bill Gates and Donald Trump. True Trump's a dickhead, but I can't think at the moment why he wouldn't deserve his fortune. Let's just say nothing is comming out of this head as far as he's concerned. Then there's Bill, can't complain about him because he is one who helped me find my love. So, yea...I pass on this question...Prego's out!

2003-07-27T15:46:00.000-07:00

Found this on Blu's page, check it out girls!

Which Silver Screen Siren are you?
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Well hello again Blogworld! Rememer me? It's yer old blond prego friend Jess! I know it's been a week since I blogged last, hope ya don't feel too left out with all the interesting stuff that did/didn't happen last week. But I figured that you all would be just waiting with anticipation to find out what was gonna happen this weekend. Well...here's the update...

As most of you know, my Love came down to my neck of the woods for the weekend. Showed up at my doorstep on friday afternoon and left this morning. :~( I enjoyed every minute of our time together, as always. Isn't it nice to have someone around who you feel just completely comfortable with? Spent most of the weekend doing what we do best...cuddling and watchin movies. I could cuddle with that man forever! Meant to introduce him to my parents this weekend, but in the midst of all the commotion with my parents vacation, was unable to. Mom just better not complain about not gettin the chance to meet him before Cambria's born cause she had it.

Took my love to the dirt track on saturday night. Lots of fun dodgin mud rocks together and tryin to watch for all the wrecks with the dust clouds of dirt rollin in our eyes. lol I even wear glasses and damn..those clouds would just kill if you didn't have your face positioned just the right way. Finally cured my yearly craving of curly fries. They serve soo much in one serving that I never order any. I had help with them on saturday so I finally got to satisfy that craving! After the races, we came home and watched a scary movie. Yea, so he lauged at me cause there's this one scene towards the end of the movie I just can't watch. Just scares the bajeebers outta me! lol He still laughs...but I still love him!

Wow, this blog is gettin long and I'm sure y'all are just gettin tired of me talkin bout my good time with my honey. Well, ya know what I have to say about that? TOUGH! If ya know me ya should expect it! lol Well, he left me this morning to try to beat the greater part of the heat. I hope he succeeded at that, not havin a/c in a vehicle on a drive like that is not fun. I actually got to watch him leave this time *insert big ole pouty lip look with a side of puppy dog eyes* Think that was harder than just hearin him leave. I sooo didn't wanna let him go and sad that he wanted to leave so early. Yet, like I said before can understand why he did. I miss him already and hope it won't be too long before I get to see him again. Oops...that'll mean Cambria comming early??!! Hmm...that could be a lil scary. Still not completely ready to go into the whole "LABOR" thing. Ahem...Epidural please...

So, as you all can see my weekend was great. Was completely happy and content and in love with my love. I'm looking forward to the next time we are able to do that again. I love him, I love him, I love you.....

2003-07-18T19:31:00.000-07:00

Ok...just a lil somethin more I saw on blu's page. This is awesome!! Find it here!

Jessica ******
A very special Cancerian

Jessica ****** is a tough cookie. You can't pull the wool over Jessica's eyes and you had better not try! Jessica was born under the sign of the crab and she can deliver a very nasty nip! Cancerians may not be the fiercest creatures in the zodiac but they are blessed with a brilliant set of self-defence mechanisms. They have impenetrable armour and sharp, scary claws. Jessica's shell is especially strong. She won't let anyone come anywhere near to her heart unless she knows for sure that they mean no harm. Her impeccable instincts inform her of this and alert her to act accordingly. This is why the world around Jessica is divided into two sorts of people - those who don't know quite what to make of her and those who have been fortunate enough to meet the real Jessica ******.

The real Jessica ****** is soft, kind, caring, loving and giving. So soft, so kind, so special as to deserve a sainthood. All praise to 'Saint Jessica the Caring.' 'Saint Jessica the Caring.' It has a ring to it does it not? It is fair comment, is it not? Indeed it is, as all who know the true nature of Jessica will willingly and eagerly confirm. There's only one problem with being a saint. It is what it does to your ego. Jessica ****** is a true saint and true saints are not just naturally loving and compassionate, they are also naturally humble. But true saints have a tendency to turn into martyrs. Sometimes, just sometimes, Jessica can be a little too good for her own good.

Oh yea...just call me Saint...Saint Jess...

blog on!!

2003-07-18T19:09:00.000-07:00

So...someone got a lil upset with me about not bloggin at all this week. Hey..I blogged on Monday..

It seems as though my week has been extreemly busy. Work has been gettin me stressed lately with my maternity leave comming up shortly and me havin to train others on how to get my work done right. The person I'm training is stressin me out with all her "I'm soo overwhelmed with all the work you do!!" all i can say is "DEAL!!" I'm not one for training, specially when it's on stuff that I've done for years and am very prone to forgettin to add a couple things cause it just comes sooo natural for me. Besides that, I'm helpin other ppl get there shit done as well. I swear...if they ever lose me...who know's what they'd do. I've already been told by my direct boss that "You better come back after your leave!!" well..umm..DUH! I have to make money somehow don't I? I mean, yea..I'd love to stay home with Cambria but don't think that's gonna pay the bills.

Besides the work thing, I've been tryin to get this damn page together....still. I keep on gettin ideas and I tell ya what...with every idea I get my internet/comp gets slooooooower. Why is that? Maybe it's the fact that I keep downloadin shit that's eatin up all my memory (what lil of it I got left)!! But I finally got my fav song on the page. I originally just embed'd it into the page, but realized that just takes the page even longer to load. So you'll find the link under the "Me..." section to your right. What song is it? It's "Crying" by Joe Satriani. For those of you who don't like instrumental guitar music...don't click on it. It will open your windows media or whatever media player you have as a default. I wished it would just play from here, but then that would mean it would take longer for the page to load (do I have to repeat myself??). Oh...yea then there's this pic of me below. "Belly Shot" For those prego lovers out there...gotta love da belly! Anyways, I think I'm done messin with my page for a lil while (give me a couple days and I'll find somethin else to do to it). Been daydreamin a lot about my visit next week..I sooo can't wait!!! I think I'm all out of words for tonight. Catch y'all later!

Blog safely!!

Here I be!

Countdown is now.......7 DAYS!!!!

2003-07-14T21:50:00.000-07:00

Well, here we are yet another Monday, which means time for Monday Madness!!

1. Have you ever attended a concert? If so, who; and how old were you when you attended your first concert? Yes, I have attended a few concerts...and i use that word strongly...FEW! I believe my first actual concert was the Crash Test Dummies, and that was during my high school years I believe...think I might've been 16 when I seen them. Besides them, I've seen Everlast, Marcy's Playground, Pat Benetar, Monica and Latoya Jackson (OMG! Did I just say LATOYA JACKSON??? *shakes head profusely*).

2. What is the biggest ride or rollercoaster that you've ever been on? Were you frightened to go on it? Well, seein as I just introduced myself to rollercoasters this last summer at Disney Land (Oh Woah!! Big ole rollercoasters!! Hold me back!!), the biggest one I went on was at Universal Studios..lol Yea, blonde remember? lol Anyways, the biggest rollercoaster would have to be the Jurassic Park ride. Damn that drop!! Yea, besides that, I've been on everything at Disneyland except Magic Mountain and the lil kiddie rides...can't fit on those no more damnit!

3. Is there an annual 'festival' that you make sure you never miss? If so, please tell about it; if not, is there any annual event that you like to attend? Well, there isn't really any festivals around that I just CAN'T miss. If anything, I like to attend the Boatnik (memorial day weekend carnival extravaganza), and the Josephine County Fair. One of these days though..I will go to the Lillith Fair!!! I will damnit!!

This is the 11 day countdown....

2003-07-11T23:29:00.000-07:00

Just a lil somethin I wanted to leave for someone very special to me. This song is special to me seeing as though through out my karaoke days (yes y'all...Jess is a former karaoke junkie) this was one of my favorites. I hope he likes....I love you!

When You Say Nothing At All
by: Alison Krauss and Union Station

It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word you can light up the dark
Try as I may I could never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes sayin' you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all

All day long I can hear people talking out loud
But when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd
Old Mr. Webster could never define
What's being said between your heart and mine

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes sayin' you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes sayin' you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all

2003-07-10T21:13:00.000-07:00

My motto for the day...

"Whatever doesn't kill you only makes you stronger"

Oh...and one more.....

"Love is in the air"

Yes y'all...Jess is back!!

2003-07-09T20:52:00.000-07:00

I don't know what to do anymore.. Ex tries to ease his way back into my life. Don't really want him there, but he is the father, he has a right. But...on the other hand...I fear I'm losing the man that I love. This kills me inside...and yet another day of swollen eye lids...I don't know what I'm gonna do... I wish there was some way I could help him to understand. But whenever I do...i get too emotional and words just don't make sense. I'm scared...really scared...

2003-07-08T19:11:00.000-07:00

Summer Potpourri

1. Strawberries or blueberries?
Mmm....I'll take em both!

2. "Legally Blonde 2" or "Terminator 3"? Terminator 3...definately. Gotta love the action. I'm already "leagally blonde"...lol

3. Hamburgers or hot dogs? Hamburgers...gotta have my meat...hehe

4. Boating or hiking? Both... Rafting would be my favorite boating experience. And gotta get yer hikin in, that's where you get to see all the beauty that life has to offer.

5. Suntan lotion or sunblock? Um...yes, like i said before...I'm a blonde...give me the damn sunblock!!

6. "Big Brother" or "The Amazing Race"? Umm...yea...ah huh...

7. Beach Boys or Jimmy Buffett? I would have to say the Beach Boys on this one seein as how my mom had them playin all thru out my childhood. Oh...and they're also commin to our county fair! lol

8. Grow your own produce or buy from supermarket/greengrocer/farm stand? I would love to grow my own produce, but I don't have the room. So of course I'd opt for the farm stand when I can.

9. Drive with car windows/top down, or with air-conditioning on? Gotta save on gas, besides...don't have a/c in my car...so windows down.

10. Go away for vacation, or stay at home? That's a hard one. Can I go away and still be at home??

Yes, I am still alive. I guess I could actually talk about how things have been goin lately. They could always be better, but I can't complain too much cause I do have my health still. I do miss my sweetie to pieces and wish he could come see me this weekend, but I'm gonna have to hold out for a couple more weeks and have an additional day to spend with him.. Yes, I can't wait and it can't be any sooner. Seems he is one person I can't stop thinkin about...can't stop talkin about...can't stop dreamin about...I could go on and on. I'm such a lush! lol But what can I say? I'm a lush in love

Ok...now why is it that guys have to come to me for relationship advice? I'm sittin here in peace tryin to complete this mission, and I'm being pestered by a friend who's totally takin advantage of my councelling techniques (however much I may or may not have...we'll never know). I wish there was a polite way of sayin "Just take care of it!!!" but I don't have the heart to say it. Hell, I love bein able to help out a friend in need, but whenever I come online it seems he has to ask ask ask... grrrr....frustratin. Whew..glad I got that out. Just don't tell him I said that k? Don't wanna hurt his feelers...

Well..I don't know what else to blog about at the moment. Think I'll just go back to talkin to my sweetie. Can't ever get enough of that...or him I love you hun!

Blog safely everyone!

2003-07-05T21:56:00.000-07:00

Strawberry: 40/100 Pear: 40/100 Banana: 30/100 Tomato: 10/100 Lemon: 10/100

Take the What Fruit Are You? test by Ellen and Aaron!

I am 25% evil.
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yep yep....just an angel I am...lol

Which tarot card are you?

2003-07-05T15:50:00.000-07:00

Ok everyone, it was time for a change. Needed somethin new. The mermaid was awesome (ouch! *hot*), but ya can only handle so much pink. So, you know the drill...give me your input on the new look!

Weekly Wrap-Up #61 - Pamper Me

1. Do you like to indulge? Why or why not? How does indulging mean something to you that it might not mean to others? I like to indulge in what I'm capable of indulging in. I believe my idea of indulging would be the same as anyone else's would be. Just taking in the pleasures of something you wouldn't normally do on a regular basis. Take for instance last weekend...that was an indulgence i'd indulge in over and over and over!! :smile:

2. What is the most indulgent thing you ever bought for yourself? For someone else? Why did you buy it? The most indulgent thing I've bought for myself would have to be my tongue ring. Ya know ya gotta go out there and "Just Do It" sometimes! I would have to say back in the day I did buy one of my ex's a smoking utensil...what can I say seein as I was with him I could use it too! LOL

3. A friend or loved one buys you a day of pampering at a local salon. What elements do you most look forward to experiencing? Why? Ya know, I could totally answer this question, but I'm gonna tweak it a lil. My loved one wouldn't need to buy me anything to pamper me. He has this lil thing about him where just being around him is pampering enough. Just the touch and the feel of him being close by is enough to keep me tied up in him. That's the one thing I look forward to every day...my next pamper session.. :wink:

2003-07-04T12:25:00.000-07:00

Happy 4th all! Here's the latest friday five!

1. What were your favorite childhood stories? Favorite childhood stories?? Wow, ya see...I'm 26 and I myself can't really remember all that much of my childhood stories. One book I did have and liked a lot and want to share with my child when she is born is Where the Wild Things are...at least I think that's what it's called.

2. What books from your childhood would you like to share with [your] children? Yea, so I just answered that question. But I plan on getting those nifty lil story books with all the ryhmes and reasons and good stuffs like that so she can start learning at an early age.

3. Have you re-read any of those childhood stories and been surprised by anything? Well, can't really say that I have...

4. How old were you when you first learned to read? I could not answer this question truthfully because I don't know the answer. Maybe one day I just picked up a book and started reading?

5. Do you remember the first 'grown-up' book you read? How old were you? First grown up book? Hmm...I think i tried to start reading those mushy romance books, but they didn't last...then went on to Christopher Pike then my now fav author Stephen King.

2003-07-03T20:56:00.000-07:00

Ok....so I'm a lil bored today. Found a couple lil quizzes lookin around...hope y'all enjoy!

you are a romance novel

what type of book are you?
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You are normal. Lucky little you

What Self-Mutilation Are You?
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2003-07-01T17:33:00.000-07:00

Summer Fun!

1. Lemonade or Ice Cold Beer? On any normal day, a beer. But seein as I'm prego...lemonade is just dandy *wink*

2. Swimming pool or beach? Swimming pool...much more privacy

3. Long weekends here & there, or a 2-week vacation? After this weekend...2 week vacation's here and there don't sound too bad. Maybe once a month? *grin*

4. Destination: Acapulco or Hawaii? Hawaii wouldn't be bad, but I'm still hopin for my Australia visit.

5. Destination: Mountains or Beach? Definately the mountains. Somethin about bein secluded...I love it!

6. Hotel/motel/B&B or camping? Camping, definately! Gotta love the wilderness in all it's freshness.

7. Carefully planned vacation, or play it by ear? Umm...I don't think I've ever planned any trip I've ever been on. I feel that it could turn out to be bad luck if I ever was to do it. I prolly will always be a play it by ear girl. Gives me mystery.. *wink*

8. Sneakers or sandals? barefoot!

9. Air-conditioning or fans? Definately air conditioning!!! Fans are good though if ya don't have the necessities for the air conditioning.

10. Concerts in the park or baseball games? I'll opt for the loud and messy cars on the lovely dirt track.

2003-06-30T12:38:00.000-07:00

Dear Blog,

WOW! That is my word for this weekend.

The hardest part of this weekend was this morning hearing him leave and then leaving his house myself. I can't remember the last time I was able to enjoy time with someone and be as comfortable with them at the same time. I have to admit, he makes me feel good. Just thinking about him...I miss him to death already. But, I just have to be strong and keep tellin myself that I will see him again, which I know is true. Distance makes the heart grow fonder right? Lets hope it doesn't drive us insane first. Again, I had a completely awesome weekend. I couldn't ask for a better one (well...me not leavin woulda been better).

Thinking over this weekend, I'm thinkin he should give his mom a lil more credit. From what I've seen in him, she did a very good job raising him. I could not complain once about something he did or didn't do. And yet noted new things in my head about the new things I found in him. I'm just hoping he feels the same, actually I'm pretty sure he does (but the reassurement is always nice *wink*)...

I loved the moments while we were watching movies when he would just look over at me and watch. Somethin about that just gives me good chills.

I hope I'm not goin on too much on this weekend, but I can't help it. I believe I am in love, and did in fact use that word today with him. Well, there's an addition to using that word for real on a man (besides the men in my family, and close friends). It feels real good and makes me emotional at the same time. I just wish we were able to see each other whenever we liked. Well, I think I've gone on enough about this weekend for now. I believe what we have now could only grow...and who knows, but I think it could be beautiful. I love you.

Stay tuned......

P.S. Sorry no Monday Mission, who wants to answer these questions anyhow when they got such a good thing to dwell on? *grin*

2003-06-27T21:24:00.000-07:00

Don't be too disappointed in me my friends. Jess is extreemly worn out from her day and has no energy to even do the Friday Five. I'm taking a short lil weekend vacation, so good luck hearin from me before Monday*wink* Anyways, I plan on havin a good time. Miss me, and blog safely!

2003-06-26T20:50:00.000-07:00

Woohooo!!! Jess is goin on a road trip this weekend!! Finally get to get it outta my system. I'm afraid I may go crazy if I don't. On another note....what's your deathday?

2003-06-24T18:16:00.000-07:00

Talk about a bloody steak!! WooHoo!! Went to the Roadhouse Grill last night for my birthday dinner and had a nice juicy petite filet mignon. It was very good, even had fried zuchinni's for my appetizer...yummmmie!! A prego LOVES her fried foods!! After we ate, I did the thing I look forward to the most....OPEN PRESENTS!!! Got what every woman wants from my Mom....Pasta Pots! (Yea...just a lil bit of corny humor) Sis got me some bathroom needs...dolphin towel set/shower curtain...odds and ends; Betty Boop votive candle holder (I am a Betty fanatic..well at least a lil bit); and hanging picture frames for the baby's room (ultrasound pics??). My parents were even nice enough to give me some (traveling *wink*) money. How much more thoughtful can one's own parents be?? *grin*

After dinner and presents it was off to Toys R Us! Spent fairly close to an hour looking at cribs, strollers, car seats and other miscellaneous odds and ends. Mom and I finally decided on a crib (FINALLY!!), which means I may be able to actually put the baby's room together after the baby shower next month!!! Good times! Ended up riding home with my Sis, which meant taking a detour to pick up her friend from work. Needless to say, her friend works at a bar..oh yippiee! We got to the bar around approximately 8:20 hoping that Sara (sis's friend) would be able to get off early (..ier than 9pm) by some off chance. We didn't end up leaving this bar, however until about 9:30. The owner happened to be out and was supposed to be back by 9, but that just didn't happen. We arrived back at my home around 10:15 (had to stop at 7-11 cause the driver and 2nd passenger just had to get slushies..and I'm the prego??). From here, my sis proceeded to take pics of my belly. While posing for these "shots of vulnerability", the baby started kicking and moving around. At the sound of that, my sis jumps up and immediately shoots her hand to my tummy. I wasn't expectin anything to happen seeing as it never really does when someone besides me has their hand to my belly, so I just stood there patiently. Surprisingly enough, the baby kicks while her hand is still attached and she freaks out.."OMG OMG!! I FELT THE BABY!!" Of course this impresses me a lil bit, Cambria finally comes outta her shell for someone, and it's sissy poo. I feel glad to have givin my sis somethin to brag about on my birthday.

I finally got to get into bed around 11, tired as all hell. As soon as my head hit the pillow, I was out (Thank God!). All thru the early morning hours I kept on gettin woken up by Braxton-Hicks contractions. Not fun by any means. Ended up getting up at 4:45 this mornin instead of stayin in bed till 5:30. Talk about an "Ouch...this day is going to be looooong!". But that's that and today is over..I lived to tell another long tale.. Damn, I can just go on and on and on about the littlest lil things can't I? Thank God that's what blogs are for. But wait! Ppl read this??!! OMG...what are they gonna think of me now?? Ah well...take this this-or-that tuesday questionaire and leave me alone *wink*

June 24: Everybody's Gone Surfin'!

1. Surf sites at random, or have a set list of regular reads? As far as blogs go, I have 3 regulars every day that I visit so far (I'm sure it will increase as time goes on).

2. Do you visit mostly blogs, or news or other sites? At this time it's blogs, but I have to look elsewhere sometimes for ideas to put into my blogs.

3. Do you go online every day, or just a couple of days a week? I used to just come online a couple days a week. Now I come online everyday...what can I say? I'd have to admit that I look forward to chatting with certain ppl everyday who just happen to be online.

4. Do you allow comments on your blog, or not? Yea, I like to see the responses I get from my thoughts. I also like to see the communication goin on with my fellow bloggers/friends. Gives me somethin to look forward to. I've seemed to check for new comments every day now, even for the old posts hoping that someone might just catch me off guard.

5. Do you shop online at all, or at regular stores? Well, seeing as I DON'T have a credit card or checking account I do not shop online. Regular stores are better cause you actually have to leave the house to buy your needs. Then again, I get my pizza delivered to my home, boy it would be disasterous if they delivered clothes and such...ouch...

6. Have you ever done online bill-paying/banking, or not? Umm...*looks up*...Nope

7. Which news site do you prefer... MSNBC.com or CNN.com? Or do you prefer some other one? Of the two listed...I don't visit either. All the news I get online would be from the Yahoo main page or my Hotmail main page. I'm not a big news buff, I hear enough about the political crap at work on my breaks...woohoo!

8. Live chat rooms, or message boards? I go for them both. I am a chat room addict, but message boards are just as good..just go a lil slower...

9. Instant messaging or e-mail? Instant messaging definately! More personal and up to the minute.

10. Yes or no: have you ever met, or at least talked on the phone with, another blogger? If not, would you want to? Why or why not? Two of the ppl that inspired me to blog I have met in person. I love them both dearly, and wish we could all be closer! Sometimes I think that the blogs bring us a lil closer than we would be if we did live closer though. Sometimes it's soo much easier to tell someone how you really feel in type/words rather by word of mouth.

Happy Blogging!

2003-06-23T12:04:00.000-07:00

1. What zodiac sign are you? Do you believe what your zodiac sign says about the kind of person you are? Cancer, and my birthday is...TODAY!!! :)

2. Do you read your horoscope on a regular (or semi-regular) basis? Do you believe there is a certain degree of accuracy in what it says? I don't really read my horoscope on a regular basis. And if I do, depending on where the source is...it's typically close to what's really happening in my life.

3. Have you ever visited (or called) any type of fortune teller? If so, feel free to share your experience; if not, feel free to share your thoughts as well. Yes, in high school a friend and I went to a psychic fair. I had my fortune told..to a certain extent. I vaguely remember the initials the psychic told me about....I know the first was a J...after that I have no clue. I thought for the longest time that it was one of my guy friends, but turned out the initials didn't match (which was prolly a good thing). So, I know the first name begins with a J...hmm..I know of someone..well actually quite a few ppl who's names start with that letter. Ah well..if it's meant to be...it'll happen. *wink* I really think fortune telling is interesting. I know sometimes it may not be accurate, and sometimes completely off...but it is neat to hear what could possibly be in store. I'd rather find out for myself though. Do i really want to know when I'm going to die? Does anyone?? Maybe it would be helpful to know, just so you can spend every day the way you'd like. But I'd rather take it one day at a time and deal with what life has in store for me. Hehe...like this wonderful lil human that's growin in my tummy...*big grins* Happy Blogging!!

2003-06-22T20:17:00.000-07:00

I've decided that seeing this is my blog, I can rant and rave about tomorrow today! Well, for those of you who don't know....tomorrow is my bday! Don't know if I should be excited or morbid about it, I am now one year closer to the big 3 0. The parents are taking me to my restaurant of choice..tell ya what, that choice was hard this year. My cravings are far and between, and what I have been craving the most is fruit. Decided I wanted to go to the Roadhouse Grill, seeing as I've only been there once and that was just for appetizers. True, they make some of the best mixed drinks...lil miss prego has to stay away. Oh woah is me... Oh well, I could have gone to Red Lobster, but I've been going there for the past who knows how many years for my bday. I felt it was time for a change. I'm just hoping the baby is ready for some meat. I've noticed today that it seems as though my tummy has dropped, but then again that's just me. I seem to be looking forward to the baby shower comming up this next month. However, I need to change the bedrooms around...again. Decided I'd rather have the baby in my room and me in the baby's...go figure. Anyways, speakin of tomorrow being my bday, I decided to go online and check out a few bday details. I found a site that has this nifty lil information system to find out all about you from the day of your birth. It's called the HoroScope Indicator, and lists different characteristics about yourself from the date of your birth. I thought this was a bit interesting. Just note you will have to download a small file. Check it out, here's what it said about my bday 06/23/1977...yes that means i'm gonna be 26...

The indicated birthday is Thursday, June 23, 1977

A birthday on the twenty-third day of the month indicates a sympathetic, sensitive, understanding person with a practical turn of mind. You have an uncanny ability to diagnose physical ailments and would therefore be well suited for a career in medicine (but not surgery, since the mission of this vibration is to build and heal instead of tear down and destroy). Your technical ability and practicality may give you an interest in law, chemistry or stocks, but you are simply too practical to succeed in art. Self-sufficient, popular and sociable, you do not suffer from an inferiority complex. You get a lot out of life because you make the best of any situation. You're a good friend who is willing to take on many responsibilities.

The Starscope is Cancer

Date: June 22 - July 22.

Symbol: The Crab - When upset, worried or shy, Cancerians will retreat into their shells. They may even develop a hard shell of self-protection, but underneath can be soft and quite vulnerable. Sometimes, they can be snappy and rather ' crabby'. When hurt or addressing a touchy issue, they will often take an indirect approach and move sideways, like the crab.

Zodiac Quality: Cardinal - signifying determination and a quiet pushiness to attain goals dear to you.

Element: Water - represents an emotional, nurturing, intuitive, creative nature. They have strong feelings and live life from the heart.

Ruler: Moon - symbolizes changeable moods, a sensitive, responsive nature, reflective and perceptive. Eternal 'mother' i.e. caring, protective, sheltering parental instincts.

Personal Phrase: I feel - denotes a deeply emotional nature. Cancerians listen to their feelings, are finely tuned and insightful, kind and compassionate, and easily hurt.

Strengths: loving - can cope with an enormous amount 'for love' of a person or personal dream, creative, artistic, imaginative, home-loving, deep family ties and values, security orientated, cautious, gentle, thoughtful, considerate, understanding, subtle, perceptive, intuitive, reflective, refined, sensitive, sympathetic, warm, caring, supportive, tenacious, very private, a strong streak of common sense, a long memory.

Challenges: intense, moody, prone to worry, stubborn, withdrawn, complex, retreat into their shells, a long memory, hyper-sensitive, insecure, self-indulgent regarding moods, food, comforts etc. - sometimes sensitive to alcohol.

As a Lover: Cancerians are romantic, sensual and tender; they're nurturing, sentimental, sensitive and considerate of their partner's needs. They seek a warm, caring, supportive relationship, they love home and family life, and their home and family will become the core of their world.

Likes: making a home, putting down roots, close family ties especially with their children, good food and home comforts, their garden, places of natural beauty particularly near water, art and music, appreciation and reassurance, encouragement and understanding, giving and receiving kindness, emotional support, privacy.

Dislikes: criticism, confrontation, coldness, aggressive or dominating behavior, a lack of kindness or understanding, insincerity, sudden change.

Ideal Home: a settled, secure, sheltered family home, a peaceful private situation, a charming garden or water view for contemplation, a fountain or water-garden could be soothing, traditional decor with artistic touches, a warm, inviting cosy atmosphere, curtains that can close out the rest of the world, plenty of cupboard space for all those things they can't throw away, places to display personal treasures and momentous.

In the Body: Cancer rules the stomach, breasts and digestive system.

Physical Assets: suppleness, emotional drive leads to endurance when they really care deeply about a commitment or goal.

Disadvantages: a tendency to digestive upsets, a tendency to retain fluid, emotions influence their energy levels and health when they're troubled, emotional tension or turbulence drain can them.

Health Tip: emotional calm will result in more vitality, keep atmosphere at meal times peaceful, eat slowly, avoid too much salt in diet, eat plenty of fresh fruits, vegetables and salads to help reduce fluid retention.

Favorite Colors: silver, soft shades of blue and green.

Birthstones: ruby, moonstone.

Best Day of the Week: Monday - the Moon's Day.

The Chinese Zodiac is The Diplomatic Snake

Snakes have always been the seducers of human beings. If you know the story of 'The White Snake', you will understand what I mean. In reality, Snake people are born charming and popular. Snakes are spotlight magnets, and they will not be ignored. Peer group attention and public recognition are the least of what he expects. Yet Snakes are never noisy or deliberately outspoken, and they have excellent manners.

Unlike the Snake who seduced Eve in to sin. the astrological Snake, is not a devil, not even a little demon. The Snake is a nice oversexed normal human being. Determined to follow through anything he undertakes to the bitter end, the Snake detests being left in the air. He makes his decisions quickly and firmly.

Most people are secretly or hopelessly in love with Snakes. Gather those frustrated folk you know and most likely, they are probably in love with a Snake. Irresistible as they seem, the Snake never wastes time in idle gossip. He thinks often and deeply. He is an intellectual, a philosophers, a cerebral person. Snake people rely heavily on first impressions, on their own feelings, on their sympathies, rather than on facts, on the advice and opinions on others. He seems to have a kind of sixth sense in this way.

Snakes are a bit tight when it comes to lending money, though his sympathy for others often leads him to offer help. The fatal flaw in his character is, in fact, a tendency to exaggerate - in helping friends as with everything else. If he does somebody a favor, he becomes possessive towards them in an odd way.

Another big flaw in a Snake's character is that, they are capable of biggie lies. White lies, true lies, whatever they call them, though they don't lie often, they do lie when they feel they can get away from it.

In money matters, the Snake has good luck: he doesn't have to worry - he'll always be able to lay his hand on money when he needs it. Generally, Snakes are careful but generous with friends and family. The Snake should stick to careers that won't involve him in any risk - even the risk of working too hard, for to tell the truth, the Snake is a bit lazy.

In love, the Snake male is romantic and charming. He has a sense of humor and the female is usually beautiful and successful. but if a Snake chooses a partner, he'll be jealous and possessive - even if he no longer loves her. Rejection is the worst blow his delicate ego can suffer. The Snake must be received, welcomed, accepted and approved by those with whom he comes in contact. They need a lot of security.

Wow...amazing how in tact this all is with my true feelings and such. Kinda scary. Maybe I shouldn't have put this information up. Ah well..too late now, just don't take advantage of it..lol *wink*

2003-06-21T18:59:00.000-07:00

Ok...thanks to the info from blu, I have a reason to try this again....hehe.....

~just-jess~
Magic Number	18
Job	Leader of the Free World
Personality	The Glass Is Half-Empty
Temperament	Sweet Natured
Sexual	Whatever, Whenever, Whoever
Likely To Win	Some Lubricant
Me - In A Word	Unique
Colour
Brought to you by MemeJack

Unique? Yea..much better than ditzy...hehe

2003-06-20T23:23:00.000-07:00

Ok...so call me a follower......

just-jess
Magic Number	18
Job	Actor
Personality	A Worrier, I Worry That I Worry Too Much
Temperament	Nervous
Sexual	Whatever, Whenever, Whoever
Likely To Win	A Free Coke
Me - In A Word	Ditsy
Colour
Brought to you by MemeJack

OMG Did that just call me Ditzy??? :-o

2003-06-20T19:43:00.000-07:00

1. Is your hair naturally curly, wavy, or straight? Long or short? Straight and short...pretty much all my life.

2. How has your hair changed over your lifetime? Well..I was born a strawberry blonde, kinda wish I still was. And besides that, I've had the typical perms, dye's, cuts, waves...etc Never went on the edge though with any of it. Hmm...afraid to take a risk??

3. How do your normally wear your hair? Well..seein as I hate workin with my hair in my face...I normally wear it back. On the weekends I like to let it down..let the wild side out a lil.. *wink*

4. If you could change your hair this minute, what would it look like? Umm..shaved?? Easier to manage that way ya know? LOL

5. Ever had a hair disaster? What happened? I think my one hair "disaster" happened back in my freshman year of high school. My hair wasn't completely long enough for a perm and it turned out lookin like a fro. Talk about some nightmares eh?? Ever seen a wigger fro? LOL

So...yes Jess is back! I am sooo extreemly wiped out from this week. I think the most I've relaxed at all was last night, watchin ER and eatin ice cream. My ankles swelled up quite a bit last night so gave me a reason to "put my feet up". Went to the hospital on wed for my child birthing class and toured their birthing facilities. It was pretty nice, not too many rooms there but looks like I may be pretty comfy when it's my turn. They have these jacuzzi tubs, and all I can think about is "how in the hell do they expect my prego ass to get in and outta that thing??" Hell...looks comfy as all hell but damn...Think ppl THINK!! Found out again after that night that stairs are not my friend. Damn knee killed me the whole next day. Therapist says that he thinks it's my kneecap. I just wish they'd do a damn MRI and figure the damn thing out so I know what the hell's goin on with it! Wow...I'm pretty testy tonight aren't I? Damn. Well, got my clutch fixed and car back tonight to find out that now I need a new speedo cable..grrrr They claim it's not their fault either...go figure. Now they want me to fork out another $80 more for that (and that's after my $350 for the damn clutch replacement!!). So yea, Jess is extreemly upset about that. Can't really afford a damn speeding ticket. Anyways, I think I'm gonna take advantage of my cell having one bar left and order a pizza. Prego's gotta eat too ya know? Blog safe ppl!

2003-06-16T19:39:00.000-07:00

My original plan for this blog was to do the normal monday routine of "The Monday Mission". Hopefully someone else will take that over for me tonight. I seem to have broke my car again and am staying with the parents for one...maybe two nights. Their computer just ain't what mine is either. But I won't be mean to it because I know it'll come back on me! LOL Already tried copy'n and paste'n the Monday Mission and the computer locked up on me twice. Yep, gotta love old systems, eh? Anyways, besides that....I have a feeling I'm gonna be stuck at home my bday weekend..*bawling face here* Gotta pay for my new clutch...oh yay. Anyways, Mom's got dinner ready...I gots ta go! Ya know us prego's gotta eat! And boy do the taco's smell yummieeee!!! Later all! Be safe!

2003-06-13T17:34:00.000-07:00

Alright, It's friday the 13th. How freaky is that? Heard about everyone's falls today, just lucky that my fall wasn't really a "fall". Just a lil bit of emotion (temper tantrum) at work today. Nothin to cry about or fret about. Overall this day was pretty decent for a friday. Only thing that sucks is that I gotta go back to work tomorrow morning to finish up on stuff that I was too busy to get to this week. Hopefully I'll be able to get it done within a couple hours (I hope I hope I hope...). I actually accomplished a lot this week (at work). Yea, I got this new blog layout that I'm lovin the reaction to so far. Still takin in the critizism though. And now my brain is empty. Wow, how quick that can happen when yer blonde and pregnant...lol Anyways...enough chit chat for now. Until next time...blog safetly everyone!

Friday Five...
1. What's one thing you've always wanted to do, but never have? Buy a new car, but I guess that takes money right?

2. When someone asks your opinion about a new haircut/outfit/etc, are you always honest? Well, I try to be as honest as I possibly can. I suppose it depends on how close we are if I'm gonna "lay it on the line" shall we say. But I try to stay as close to how I truly feel as possible.

3. Have you ever found out something about a friend and then wished you hadn't? What happened? Umm...who hasn't? Bout a couple years ago, I found out that one of my girl friends slept with the guy I was kinda seein while I was away on vacation. Nice eh? I know I was "kinda" seein him...but hello..look at the circumstances...I liked him right?? I'm still wonderin that to myself...and why did I like him? We'll never know....

4. If you could live in any fictional world (from a book/movie/game/etc.) which would it be and why? Ok, my mind went blank on this one ppl. First, I wouldn't want to be in any of Stephen King's fictional worlds (I mean, who really wants to be eatin alive??), seeing as that's who I read. My favorite type of movie is Horror, and again I ask who really wants to be eatin alive?? And the last game I played was Myst, and how boring would it be to be completely alone and bewildered on an island fending for yourself and not knowin a DAMN thing to get you off and back home? Whew....that was tough. So, again to answer that question...my mind's BLANK! LOL

5. What's one talent/skill you don't have but always wanted? To be able to do the splits without hurting myself. LOL The things you can do when you can painlessly do the splits...hehe

2003-06-12T20:20:00.000-07:00

Hey all! It's me again! Your local prego wacko! *S* Hope some of you weren't really expecting a Tony winning blog, but will ya consider a Tony winning page layout instead? lol I'm sorry, I saw this skin and HAD to have it (I mean...you'd do the same right?)!! So give me a lil bit of input ppl. Anythin else you'd like to see on this page, either it be about me or maybe just different styles? I'm open to anything and everything! Play with me, shall we say?

2003-06-10T11:26:00.000-07:00

Today was a decent day at work. Got most all of what I achieved to do done even before my therapy appointment! Gettin extreemly excited about my dr's appointment tomorrow. My last ultrasound, the last time I'll be able to see my baby before I "SEE" my baby. So I'm payin for this one outta my own pocket, cause I'm just selfish and I wanna make sure there's no outtie..lol This time I'm gonna have my mom there to videotape it so we got somethin to start on as far as home videos. I'm just finding this whole thing soo exciting!! I know this is a good thing, but then I find myself rambling on to ppl bout this and that and the other thing. Either relating to the baby, my accident or the non existant so called "father". I wish someone would just tell me to SHUT THE HELL UP! about it (specially the "father" part...grrrr). Besides that, I'm as happy as a Bee! But, how happy is a bee actually? If ya got that answer...let me know.

This-or-that.....
TV Shows/Movies

1. "The Munsters" or "The Addams Family"? I like to go with the originals, The Munsters .

2. "The Sopranos" or the "Godfather" movies? Well, seeing as though I've never really watched a Godfather flick, I'd have to say The Sopranos.

3. "The Jetsons" or "Lost in Space"? Jetsons, I used to watch that show constantly after school.

4. "Superman" or "Batman" (either the TV shows or the movies)? Superman is my hero! I'm sorry, who could turn down Christopher Reeve?

5. "Sex & The City" or "Friends"? SEX & THE CITY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh..sorry. No question about it folks! If I had "real" cable I'd be watchin the reruns over and over and over and over. I'm just a nut for a single girl's show full of SEX! LOL

6. "The Wizard of Oz" or the "Harry Potter" movies? The Wizard of Oz. One of my all time favorite classics.

7. "The Simpsons" or "King of the Hill"? I'd have to say The Simpsons since I've seen more of that than the other. Never watched it religously though, unless there was nothing else on.

8. "Grease" or "Saturday Night Fever"? GREASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oops...there I go again with my loud obnoxious outbursts... What girl doesn't know every song to this movie though? Definately a classic and one of my most fav movies..just a singer at heart..hehe

9. Old prime-time soaps: "Dallas" or "Dynasty"? neither...I'll stick with General Hospital if I want reality...Days of our Lives for fiction.. lol

10. Not very thought-provoking this week...do you prefer TV shows or movies? I prefer movies over shows. Hello! No commercial breaks, and if it's a rental you can stop it when ya gotta go pee! *S*

2003-06-06T17:58:00.000-07:00

Ya know? There are 2 things that would make this friday just awesome! 1. If I actually had some money. 2. If I had a good running car. I am one of those types of ppl who can't go on without a road trip once in awhile. Before I became pregnant, I would go on one at least once a month. I tell ya what though, those rental car bills do add up. I do miss seeing those friends I visited. Friends are great aren't they? Specially the ones who treat you with the same respect and honesty that you treat them. It tends to be rare to find those types lately. But anyways, Jess is now accepting donations for a new car (someone wanna instruct me how to go about paypal without a checking account? lol). Well, the rap up of my week would be basically that it was a long extreemly crappy one. Thank GOD it's over! :) Speakin of friday's....here's the latest 5:

1. How many times have you truly been in love? And I ask myself..."What really is love?" I have been known to be a naive girl in love. I feel vibes and automatially get trapped in the web. Unfortunately...it's always been a one-sided web. My second question would be "Wold being in love mean the opposite person would have to love you back?" I have been in too many so-called "relationships" where it seems I am the only one with the feelings. I've ran into this far too many times to count. I'd have to say that I have cried over quite a few boys/men in my day, but I couldn't explain if it was really love that I felt or not. This tends to be a lil difficult to talk about sometimes, seeing as it tends to depress me a lil bit. As far as being "in love" goes, I haven't yet told anybody of the opposite sex that I loved them (in a completely mushy mushy love way) besides the close friends I have and the men in my family. I'm trying to protect my heart in the best way I can, and boy that's a lonely thing to do.

2. What was/is so great about the person you love(d) the most? As I said before, I can't say if I've been "in love" with any man. Of course I end up referrin to the opposite sex...but that's what this is about right??

3. What qualities should a significant other have? Ok...this could go on and on... First of all..it just wouldn't be right if you couldn't be comfortable with them doing anything in the world. "Honesty is the best policy" I've been with quite a few who could say this phrase but couldn't quite understand what it really meant. Honesty for me is extreemly important in a relationship, and when someone isn't honest..how can they be loved? Trusting...this comes hand in hand with honesty I believe. But, trusting also means being able to let someone hold your heart and trusting that they won't smoosh it. Another great quality would be patience, yet not letting it go overboard. I have been with a few slackers in my time and that's just too much patience for me to handle!! And like I said, I could go on and on with this one, but I'm gonna stop now. I believe the most important qualities I have listed already...

4. Have you ever broken someone's heart? Well, I don't know for sure but I think I have broken someone's heart once before. I'm just lucky that he's still around for me and actually listens to what I have to say. He is truly one of my best friends for sticking up with me in my extreemly down and out moments.

5. If there was one thing you could teach people about love, what would it be? Cherish it, and tell me what it's like. Don't take advantage of what ya got, let it take advantage of you. Let love embrace you and make you excited bout waking up everyday. Cherish it to the fullest.

2003-06-03T18:38:00.000-07:00

YAAAYYYYYYY!!!! Work is done for the day! I swear if I had to stay there any longer I woulda killed someone!! grr Don't you hate those days? Anyways, I went to my consultation with my physical therapist today...and Yayyy!! he said I could still possibly walk! Whew... So for now, I'm gonna be exercising my leg to strenthen the muscles around my kneecap. Some more appt's to add to my prenatal appts. Let's make that at least 2 dr appts a week now (oh bother). Anyway, enough about that. Got a lil "this-or-that" for ya!

Animals

1. Cats or dogs? Dogs...more dependable and not soo stuborn.

2. Butterflies or birds? Butterflies...can be prettier and definately quieter!!

3. Horses or cows? Well...this is hard...Horses are kewl to ride and they're beautiful. But cows come in handy when it comes to....food.. hehe

4. Turtles or snakes? Snakes. My cousin's got me into the snake thing. Had a python farm (well...so it seemed) and Jess was lucky enough to be introduced. They ain't that bad, they can take care of themselves well (just don't make me feed em *s*).

5. Frogs or grasshoppers? Definately frogs. Gotta love those lil green guys. They may be noisy at times but they're not ass annoying as those damn grasshoppers!

6. Lions or tigers? TIGERS!! Hello! Look and listen to my page. Stupid Stupid questions ppl.... hehe

7. Elephants or mice? Well, they both can be a bit smelly but i'd go with a cute lil white mouse over a big ole smelly Elephant. Besides, where would I keep it??

8. Porcupines or aardvarks? umm....neither, thank you.

9. Unicorns or dragons? I'm sorry, dragons are kewl but I'd much rather have a unicorn. Every lil girls dream right?

10. Thought-provoking question of the week: You live in a rather dumpy apartment. A friend offers you a chance to be a roommate at a new place s/he is moving into, but they don't allow pets. You have a pet. Do you find your pet a new home and take the new place, or do you keep your pet and stay put? Definately keep my pet and stay put. I've already dealt with this situation before and it hurts more than ya think. I'm not about to put a family member in a home just because I wanna move. Nopers

2003-06-02T22:40:00.000-07:00

Look at me, Miss Dedication workin on her blog after 10pm on a weeknight. I'm soo proud of myself. However, I'm gonna cheat and do a Monday Mission...hehe Today, for a Monday wasn't so bad. Went to another prenatal visit with the dr and everything's fine, he says the baby's growin at a good rate (Umm...does that mean they're gonna be huge???) Yea...scary thought, but we'll deal with that later! *wink* Anyways, on to the Monday Mission (which I will have a link to later in the week)....

Monday Mission 3.22

What habit do people have that drives you crazy but doesn't seem to bother anyone else?
Ok, I don't know bout y'all...but ppl who don't use their turn signals when they turn really bugs me! I mean these ppl just decide to stop in the middle of the street and turn without notice? I've had too many close calls with these ppl and it just drives me bonkers!!!

Have you had any expensive car trouble recently? Well, I had to replace my alternator in the last couple of months. I still have minor work to be done though like oil change (minor leak there as well), timing has needed help for some time and my speedometer has been off since the first day i've had the car! *s*

How do you feel about mothers who breastfeed their children in public? At what age do you think they should stop? Ok, me being a mother to be would NEVER breastfeed in public. If I had no other choice though, it would be in my car or a deserted corner where it would be hard to see. That's just nasty! I remember walkin thru the mall and some lady would be just sittin there with her nasty boob all hangin out with some lil 3 year old suckin on it! NASTY!!! Yea, I'm gonna prolly stop breasfeeding after the 1st or 2nd month seein as though it's gonna be hard to continue after I return to work. Otherwise I would say a normal person would breastfeed for the first year.

Do you recall the first item from your youth that became an "antique" and made you feel old and how you felt? Or if it hasn't happened, yet, what item do you think it will be and how do you expect it to make you feel? Umm...are Cabbage Patch Kids considered antique? I'm thinkin those were antique when I was lil. But if so, didn't make me feel old cause some mean person stole mine!!! WAAAAAHHH!!!! LOL

Do you like rainy days/nights? What type of weather makes you feel relaxed? Yea, I'd have to say rainy days and nights are nice. Good way to keep ya in, and the sound of the rain if it's just right can be soo relaxing. Take a nice bath, light some candles and listen to some light music...ahhh...I can feel it now....

Have you ever found that you have become that which you once ridiculed? Yes. Well, not so much ridiculed...but I always imagined myself being one of the so called "Lucky Ones" who had someone to share the experience of having a baby with. I've always felt sorry for those women who went thru it alone and always told myself that it wasn't gonna happen to me. Well, now it is and I really couldn't be happier. I think taking care of myself is awesome and it's gonna be nice to have the added responsibility of my baby. But I will be taking applications for over-night babysitters if you're interested *wink*

Have you ever sent an e-mail to the wrong person? What was the most embarrassing experience you remember? Umm...the most embarrassing experience? I'd rather not devulge that for it has already incriminated me...

BONUS:
Today's Comment Question: Write a caption for this photo!

"Ok, can you feel this?"
"No, but can you do it again?"

2003-06-01T14:27:00.000-07:00

Yes, I know I haven't been keeping up with my blog as well as I could be. I have excuses though, I was workin on my page as you would have noticed from my last entry. And nothing really exciting has happened in my life the past few days (besides finishing this page). Looking for little interesting things to post, I got a suggestion from a friend (thank you Blu!). Here is what came of the suggestion:

1. What time is it?: 1:51

2. Name as it appears on your birth certificate?: Jessica Lea ________

3. Nickname(s): Jess...J...Chestica...and other unmentionables.

4. Parent Names: Cathy & George

5. Number of candles that appeared on your last birthday cake: What cake?? Woulda been 25 though.

6. Date that you regularly blow them out?: June 23rd

7. Pets: umm...my protruding plant??

8. Eye color: blue

9. Hair color: blonde

10. Piercing: 2 in each ear and one in the tongue

11. Tattoos: none as of yet...

12. How much do you love your job?: Well, let's put it this way...I've been there longer than I've been at any job before and I feel very stable. That would be a good thing right?

13. Favorite color: Ok...who has just one fav color? I'd have to say purples, greens, blues, yellow(my happy color!), and pastels

14. Hometown: Granada Hills, CA, however only lived there for a few years then was raised in Grants Pass, OR.

15.What fantasy do you want fulfilled? Umm...is this a trick question? I can’t think of one that I would want more than the other. Maybe just to find that one person and live a happy coherent life?

16. Favorite food(s): Well...seein as I'm hungry almost 24/7...all foods are my fav foods! Hehe

17. Been to Africa?: Nope, the only traveling I've done outside of the US is Canada/B.C.

18. Been toilet papering?: Almost did it once...but nope.

19. Loved somebody so much it made you cry?: Umm...who hasn't?

20. Been in a car accident?: Yep, a few of them actually. Most of them just fender benders besides the last one...I decided to find out what it was like to roll a car(won't do it again).

21. Croutons or bacon bits?: Croutons...bits just get stuck in yer teeth.

22. Sprite or 7 UP? : Sprite...7-Up's got too much carbonation.

23. Favorite Movie: Gia...there's just something about Angelina Jolie

24. Favorite Holiday: Christmas and my Birthday...woohoo can never get enough goodies!

25. Favorite day of the week: Friday...last day before the weekend!! Woohoo

26. Favorite word or phrase: Whatever! And I've been known to say "oh boy" quite frequently

27. Favorite Toothpaste: Gotta have a fav? I'd be happy with just finding the one that keeps the yellow gunk off my teeth and makes my gums healthy.

28. Favorite Restaurant: hehe...Olive Garden, China Hut, Muchos Gracias, and Hometown Buffet!!

29. Favorite Flowers: I don't think I can pin point 1 fav flower. I do like tulips, pink and yellow roses (however a dozen red roses would definitely shock me).

30. Favorite Drink: Normally if I wasn't Prego I'd say Jegermeister and Red Bull, always keeps me goin. Then there's my man Jose, I can't trade him for nothing! But for now I'll have to settle with my Shirley Temple or Black Cherry soda.

31. Favorite sport to watch: Not an avid sports watcher, but I've been known to watch a lil football and basketball.

32. Preferred type of ice cream: Peanut butter n Chocolate, Creamsicle (Orange sherbert and vanilla ice cream...(yummmie), then there's the bars...love Milky Way dark ice cream bars just can't find them anymore...boohoo

33. Favorite Sesame Street Character: Ok, I haven't watched Sesame Street for like over 15 years...should I remember something like this?

34. Disney or Warner Bros.?: I could never choose between these two, too much good stuff ya know?

35. Favorite Fast Food Restaurant?: Muchos Gracias and Mickey D's

36. When was your last hospital visit?: My junior year of High School...think that was in /94?

37. What color is your bedroom carpet?: Two-tone brown.

38. How many times did you fail your drivers test?: None

39. Have you ever been convicted of a crime?: Is a DUII a crime? I took diversion...

40. Which single store would you choose to max out your credit card?: Right now? Babies-R-Us

41. What do you do most often when you are bored?: Read a book, watch a movie, or mess around online.

42. Name the person that you are friends with that lives the farthest away? Shane, he lives in Australia.

43. Most annoying thing people ask me?: What happened to the father? grrr

44. Bedtime: During the week I try to limit it to 10pm...the weekends...whenever.

45. Favorite all time TV show: Umm...Friends and Charmed.

46. Last person you went out to dinner with: Mom and Step-Dad

47. Last Movie you saw: Devine Secrets of the YaYa Sisterhood (Theatre)

48. Time when you finished: 2:15

Hope ya enjoy the readin material! Until next time...Ciao!

2003-05-31T01:14:00.000-07:00

Well, let's see... It's 1:02 in the am on a sat morn. Maybe I shoulda told him I'd be up? lol Anyways, I finally racked my brain over trying to get this blog page together and Viola!! Worked a total of 7 hours on this thing(even lost my whole html page), I'm thinkin I should get paid for this. I planned on doing the Friday Five, however seeing as it is now sat morning I'm thinkin that there really would be no point. I'm thinking I should look for a Saturday Seven? (Who knows) Well one thing to look forward to....NO WORK FOR 2 DAYS!! Wooohooo Ya see, I knew there was a reason I was still up...haha yea right! Seeing as though it is way passed my bedtime(baby's even restful) I might sneak a snack and hit the hay. Hope those of you that are lucky enough to see this blog here in the next future(yea, the ppl with the good advice ;) ahem...Blu) will like what they see and not have too much more input to add. Otherwise, I'm always happy to recieve criticizim on my work, it can always be improved. Anywho..this chicka-dee is out! Catch ya on the flip side!

Jess

2003-05-31T00:23:00.000-07:00

Ok, so here we are on lovely day #2. So, seeing as thought I'm pregnant and gaining weight it's typical to excersice to keep the weight gain to a minimum right? Well, Jess found out today that she just might be the lucky owner of a nice rounded blubber butt here in the near future. grrrr Yes there is a story behind this (Isn't there one for everything?).
A Day in the Life of Jess...
On one typical weekday morning Jess wakes up and goes about her normal routine before heading to work. Start the coffee....brush teeth...get dressed....chat a lil with the mornin crew...start the car. Well, interesting enough, the car has a few probs itself. First the starter's going out...second the rear breaks are shot (no emergency break in otherwords).....and the timing is constantly off. So yea, car is parked on the slight hill on my driveway, so I have to normally manuver it so after I get it jump started I can put it back up and keep it put. Well, this morning was gonna be different. I start my car, it doesn't start to roll so I'm safe to leave the car right? Umm...wrong...I start walking back to the apt to hear the sound of tires on gravel. (Umm...uh oh..) So Jess (In heels and a dress) turns around to see the car rolling down the slight incline (thinking to herself...oh shit!! don't want this car running into the other apt's) and decides to try to stop it. So she runs in front of the car to stop it with her body...yep..it stopped alright...with me under it! So yea, there's Jess almost completely under the front passenger side tire and stuck there. Couldn't really move seeing as thought the parking concrete was wedged into the other side of me. So I start yellin and screamin for the man. Him and a couple neighbors end up running out freakin out and pull me from under the car. Yea, talk about freakin someone out. It was very hard to walk for quite some time after that accident. Funny thing about that day is later when I went to get myself checked out...well...found out I was pregnant (umm..hello SIGNS!!). Now there's one for the records!

Ok so enough of the story. Since my pregnancy, I've been experiencing probs with my knee off and on during various times. Finally get in to see an orthopedic physician to tell me I can't continue walking and that I have to go to a physical therapist. Yea, well sucks to be me. I am one girl who isn't a dieter. The closest I've ever gotten to dieting is being broke so not able to go shopping for food. Now there's a diet some of us prolly know all to well. So yea, I'm pretty scared that I'm just gonna bloat on out. I did mention that I was slightly self concious of myself right? Ok...just makin sure. So from here I'm thinkin I'm givin out more than just a lil bit of myself, so I'm gonna stop for now. I'm sure there will be plenty more to come...

2003-05-27T20:16:00.000-07:00

So...here we are the beginning of something unforseen. The life and times of Jess? Sounds a little scary and complicated to me. But, knowing me I'm always up for a new challenge. Let's see how long it takes me to actually let ppl see into my mind. Wow, that scares me a lil when I think about it. Ppl looking into my mind? Whew..

Anyways, a little about Jess...

hmm...lets try this numbering thing out shall we?

1. That's one emotional gal!
2. As honest as she possibly can be at all times.
3. Can't lie with a straight face...(oops, should I have said that?)
4. A lil self-concious (but bein prego lessens it a bit)
5. Always has her eyes peeled (sad but true)
6. Very caring at heart.
7. Very Very Very Very Very Very Very (shall I go on?) excited for her lil one to come into the world (should be #1 but the numbering system isn't workin that great for me)
8. Tends to lose her mind at least once a day.
9. Has been hurt by love many times and hopes she's learned from it.
10. Thinks the more close friends she has the better (well...duh!).

Ok...well my mind is burnt thinking of these lil things bout myself so I'm gonna stop there. I think I'm giving out more than I planned already. Ah well...that's life in the journal land right?

Happy Deathday!
Your name:	Jess
You will die on:	Thursday, March 31, 2016
You will die of:	Snake Bite
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